When I walk into my studio, I am greeted by works, just waiting to be chosen, which were left in process from the previous day. A quick glance at each painting usually tells me where to go next. I have no idea until that moment. 

For the longest time, the thought of not knowing exactly what to paint scared me. Years of having a plan and following lists left me feeling adrift when painting intuitively and abstractly. But slowly, I learned to let go more and trust the impulses as they came. 

Now, more often than not, I am comfortable mixing a color I have never used with the cold wax and applying it randomly, often adding marks along the way. Letting go of the rules I have been taught and just winging it more have made all the difference. I still fall back on the art principles I have learned but use them carefully and when appropriate. 

As my art journey continues, I am finding a freedom of expression that I did not think was possible. I look forward to what’s next and am excited to meet each new painting.